I was not born this way. I have what I consider to be a gift that was given to me, it started December 31, 2008 and continues to grow every single second, it is bigger when I go to bed than when I woke up that morning and grows more and more every single second. I will start from the beginning, December 31, 2008 I was not very happy with myself, I explain to people that I was ugly on the inside and the outside, I think that a person that is happy on the inside is even more beautiful on the outside because your spirit shines through. I was extremely over weight, ate garbage food, and couldn't walk up two flights of stairs without being winded. I was jealous of strangers for no reason, I just wasn't a very beautiful person and had no real direction for my future or the future of my family. So on New Years Eve of 2008, my husband and I were planning on being home and as usual we were generally strapped for cash so I borrowed The Secret from the public library to watch that night and we borrowed another movie as well. Needless to say after consuming queso (still one of my favorite foods) made from a half of loaf of Velveeta it was not going to be easy staying awake to watch The Secret at 11 at night, but I did and it was amazing (I highly recommend it).
So again I digress, watching The Secret on DVD that night lit the fire in me, well it was more like a spark that started. It was slow a very slow burn, but a fire that starts small burns the brightest right? I started working out within 2 weeks with a trainer, it was the beginning of the new me and I didn't even know it. (Let me just say this as a sidebar, I seem to do a lot of things that turn out to be pretty huge without realizing what I am starting). After starting with my personal trainer and Weight Watchers it took a while but eventually I started learning what food does to our bodies and I began to look at it as a fuel, the higher the quality the higher the burn factor. Look at your body as a machine, the higher quality fuel you put in it the more efficient it is going to run. This was huge for me to understand (keep in mind I am not perfect by a long shot, I grew up in a very traditional German family where healthy eating was meat and potatoes).
Anyway, I dont want to get stuck on the food part for too long, but I would like to add that conquering the food dependency is still something that I struggle with and I am sure I will for the rest of my life and you know what, that is just fine. We all have struggles, it is how we handle them that determines the outcome.
So here I am starting a new life and I am not even conscience of it, but I start to see really good things happening. I am more outgoing, my body is changing and that is making me happy. I learned that instead of being jealous of a person it is more enjoyable to compliment them, make then smile and feel good about themselves, because isn't that how we feel when a person compliments us? I was finding my spirit, the thing that makes me me, that makes you you. It is like finding a Picasso in a dusty dark attic, I was taking away the old bags and dust that was on top of my spirit.
Well this was just the beginning of this journey that I started on December 31, 2008, I wanted to give a little bit of background on how I became the way I am, because Baby I wasn't born this way, it has been a lot of hard work to turn my life in the direction that I am currently going and I love it!
So tonight I will leave you with this, compliment people every single day, and when you are complimented take that as a gift because that person thought enough of you to let you know how they were feeling. I try not to do a courtesy compliment back on purpose, because I dont think it seems genuine. It is like going to the salon, even though I am there for a wax all the girls like to compliment my hair, even though I know it may look like I had just walked through a tornado. See what I mean? It just doesn't seem genuine. So when I receive a compliment I thank the person, simple enough, "thank you". Love and light people, I am sending you the most amazing rays of golden sun light and I will try to blog again tomorrow about my St. Patrick's day antics!
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